In the stuffy small little place that i call home, me, my parents and my others 3 sibling use to live day by day,with my parents responsibilities on they are shoulders to bring us up in good condition and enough what the childrens need, but with my father and my mother working in the farm, our family far for being enough in need,everyday my parents just think what we eat for tomorrow.
Being my parents second child im, i able to felt my parents burden and see all they are suffering,it move my heart greatly and was so painful, i can still remember it after all the years,my mother use to tell me,”Nur just focus about your study and dnt worry about money or what we eat for dinner to night”.what I want is you must pass your exam and finish your N level,the rest i will take care of,with tears rolling down like a river, i study really hard as my mother told me to.It seems to me as if i hadir to take on some of my parents responsibility,i could not to see they are suffering.
Thanks God finally i finished my N level and hoping i can get job in the factory so i can help my parents to support my sibling go study.
But unfortunately i could only work in the factory for a year,my parents matched me with man which order than me 15 years,Goodness me what am i supposed to do? I don’t know him! I wanted to obey my parents for they are happiness. Without complaints or protect i agreed to merry him. He was a good Man and taught me how to be a loving wife.i was happy to be merried to him.After a year i was blessed with a son, it was on my 4 Anniversary that i conceived my second child.
Unfortunately before my child was born,my husband passed away, i felt as the darkness hadir fallen upon to me,i could not cope with the loss specially since i was pregnant, and look back my parents condition.
After i delivered my second child, i decided to take charge of my life,i promise to myself that i would give a better future for my childrens and for my parents.And again i must bother my parents to take care my childrens.
Singapore? Yes i felt this was very good opportunity for me to support my family.At 1997 i starting work in singapore as a Domestic worker, this is first time i liaving my country, its not easy but I must learn and adjust how singaporean life,its a choice i need to make it.
Yes day by day,month, and years now 20 years im working in singapore as a Domestic worker, back home i build ready sweet home for my parents n my childrens, and i can send my sons study at University, felt blessed, felt happy with God love and care
Im Nurfadilah Binti Sulikin
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